I have known for 20 days now, and yes - I still love him.
I want our life back.
But I do not want him back as the person that he is now - a liar, a cheater, a betrayer of trust.
I want back the person that I loved for ten years, that I thought loved me.
The man that gave me butterflies in my stomach every time he walked in to a room.
The man I thought that I had married six weeks ago.
The man that proclaimed marriage vows in front of his family and closest friends.
He is not that man anymore.
He says he has changed - he's not the person I knew.
He's not the person that I loved.
There is no winning in this situation.